Over the decades, I keep switching between caffeine times and caffeine-free times.

It's like this:

• need an extra boost for morning or afternoon, and it is really important
• it becomes a regular thing again, at least 1xmorning, 1xafternoon
• ups and downs are too strong, switching to guarana
• it works, even boost now
• It turns into madness, e. g. not enough sleep, and it prevents me from napping, or even night sleep is not good anymore. Also, completely dysfunctional in the morning.
• optionally increase up to double dose
• unpleasant withdrawal
• back to start after a month, year or two years

Right now, I'm on day 3 or 4 of a very unpleasant withdrawal again. Headaches, poor sleep quality, muscle and joint pain. Also, the Elvanse boost is really diminished, a lot. Tragically, in terms of productivity and mood, it worked really well with caffeine, just too much madness.

Do you think just staying off for good is the way to go?