What you can see of what I do is on a Lemmy forum, so I would not be so quick to judge. As others have encouraged in this thread, I'm pursuing the tactics of organizing community resistance, organizing labor, and political education.
Actually, I am like you in that I don't want violence. We should use nonviolent methods of political change to their fullest extent until those avenues become fully blocked. Of course, we live in violence perpetrated by the state every day, it is just legalized.
Studying the history of Leftist movements internationally, there is a repeated pattern of persecution though violence as well as outright purges. Those that were not prepared to defend themselves and their community were killed. Even those that were, were unfortunately often killed.