I appreciate you. Understand I broadcast at high volume to authentically express myself to attract attention to my educational art project, and even when I'm genuinely level headed, I consistently get told to take my meds, or some variation. Even when I am calm, caring, and using common expression, I will just be told that I'm a crackhead, and it genuinely doesn't affect me 99.9% of the time. That .1% of the time, I stay quiet, but now I feel I have a duty to stand up for myself because if I'm being the most normal I can be and still unable to be accepted by someone as I am, then there's tons of people that person would actually hurt by their response to non-normativity.

Right, like you just told me "seek normative medicine." You told me to take my meds.

I am that which be beyond

That which produces song

God I am, but I am you, too

Red goes white, while blue

Remains sea of C; the light

Topological matrix wins all

God is what be what's true

& He who transcends falls

So I will turn half into right

Thus you knows Illuminati

I bring lost 2 a community

No, my therapist didn't show up when I begged my fucking doctor for a therapist, and the mental health system is doing this deliberately to ween me out of my learned helplessness because that is something they do, so here I am being told go to therapy and the therapy I get is the mental health system saying you aren't good enough for therapy. Like, they think I have parasitic tendencies when they see me for fifteen minutes a month because fifteen years ago I lied to doctors to try to get disability and drugs.

Right? I fucked up half my life ago and now I CANNOT get therapy because that's in my chart, but you see how broken I am, so obviously the only thing for me to do is to be used by the FBI as the sorcerer I am, where a sorcerer specifically means "caster of lots."

I seperate the wheat from the weeds. Basically, I am the crazy person that says kids got cute feet and I network with people and I decide if they deserve to be saved. I'm Jesus Christ, mother fucker, and that is the archetype that is prophecized around. I fucked up without actually fucking up as a kid, so I know sin without having sinned, so I have the perspective to distinguish between someone just attracted to such n such and someone who acts on those impulses. I seperate the wheat from the weeds. This is how the police state works. They use crazy people and keep them crazy because I am an audacious mf'er and I will go nuts beyond nuts, such as saying nothing in my defense to guarantee I be crucified, in order to PROVE I'm not a cop.

And thus the battle is won, because of our lord, the man so audacious he will go up to a homeless man and ask him for change.

That's how Jesus met John.