Probably a bad boy... With a gun.

I mean, not especially as far as guns go. It's not like gun violence/negligence impacts my life constantly. The only reason I even own any guns beyond a few heirlooms is because of the rise of fascism and the fact that most gun nuts are right there with them. In my opinion and experience, there are larger issues with the US that feed gun violence and suicides, like the lack of social safety nets, public transit, rugged individualism, and the lack of representation in government. I'm not defending the absurd amount of guns in this country, and if there ever is a thoughtful approach to reducing the amount of guns in personal possession, I am all for it. I enjoy target practice, mostly with a 22 rifle, and would be perfectly fine with visiting a properly regulated range to rent a rifle and plink some targets.

Living in the USA seems harrowing

It depends heavily on where you are in the US. I grew up in a crime/poverty stricken area, and gun violence was pretty much a daily thing. But the town I live in now has literally never had a single act of gun violence. We all have guns, but we use them for target shooting and hunting. Moving to the woods from an inner city was like night and day. Growing up, if I heard gunshots I knew that someone was getting hurt/killed. Now if I hear gunshots, it's just the neighbors practicing for deer season.