Why are you so hostile? I'm being sincere. I'm walking through what you said so that I'm sure I understand. I asked you to say more, and you did, and I just want to confirm I understood it. You don't need to come in so hot.
I didn't mean obtuse like you're intentionally doing that. But I asked you a question and you answered it with another question that described what you were presumably talking about in the negative. Like I have to figure out your meaning by trying to suss out what you dont mean. Thats what I meant by obtuse. If I "got all that" its because I took great care reading and trying to understand your comment. No one else who responded to you bothered to give a damn about your meaning.
You clearly have no clue what my philosophy is. To be clear, I am someone who has read many theory books, and understands them. And yes, I am a Marxist. But I dont think reading books solves the ideology problem you are alluding to.
Reading theory is something that leftists engage in because we want to change ourselves, and we do this by learning to understand facts. There is lots of leftists that just substitute a new ideology, but I try to keep myself honest. There is no author I've read, no org I've joined that I haven't openly criticized, while working to improve the theory or the org.
So when leftists say to "read theory" I think they mean "you should work to improve yourself" which is nice but its a value judgement, it's more idealism. If I'm doing certain kinds of work with people, then yes I need us to be on the same page with our strategies, tactics and definitions. But I dont usually tell people to read theory, I usually just quote/explain the theory in want them to understand. If we can't do that, then imo we dont actually understand it either. More idealism, someone "should" do this or that. Thats not leftism, leftism isnt a social club, it is the struggle.for liberation.
My leftism is essentially practical. I believe that people learn by doing with other people, and when people do new things with new people it changes things in the individual and in the objective world. All the books that I've read, if you really condense Marx into a phrase, that is it. "The philosophers have only interpreted the world, the point is to change it".
In my experience a leftist is someone who does the work of liberation, not someone who has read certain books and says certain things a certain way at certain times. When people do the work they often read the theory. Sometimes when people read the theory they do the work, but I'd rather start with the first person than the second. To be honest, I'm much more the second person and its harder to fight idealism with ideas than it is with experiences. So someone who has their mind made up can read theory and it just confirms what we already think. If it doesn't change the way we act, if it doesn't engage us in the work, then the theory is just ego, a waste.
As for 1919 I have no clue what you are referring to.
And for idealism and ideology, these are complicated concepts and I dont think we are on the same page as to their meaning. If you'd like to explain what you mean a little better, rather than just asking pointed questions in a way that does not make clear at all what your beliefs are, that would be helpful. You dont talk like any leftists I've ever met, so its really hard to determine where you are coming from. Can you just name something that you believe other than "liberals bad"? The way you talk about liberals is not qualitatively different from how reactionaries describe liberals.