Well yeah of course, i recognise im very lucky compared to others, i don't want to pass the idea that i think im in the worst place i could be and neither i write this in hope to get others to feel sorry for me. I was just putting my thoughts outside of my head.
About the work part, i probably gave the wrong idea. It's not like im rich or smth that i can think of not working. I would like to continue to stay in university and get a Phd and maybe who know become a professor, but for my subject of study, which is underfunded compared to STEM, and in Italy in general it's hard to get accepted if you don't get a little "help" from a professor. If i cant pursue in this career id have to search for another kind of employment, and i guarantee you, here in Italy they aren't anxious to give a job to somebody fresh out of uni which hasnt graduated in engineering or IT. Thats want i meant with "i'll have to start working".
Anyways yeah you are right, i was lucky thats, for sure. I try my best to do what i think is better for my life, maybe im just nostalgic.