i've learned the hard way that some nuero-divergent behaviors (like mine) sow distrust within neuro-typical people who won't let you help organize w them out of instinctual fear.

the last times i tried with the greens; lgbtq center in san jose; and the gmhc in new york; they had me spending the overwhelming majority of my time picking up garbage in parking lots and roads by myself.

the last 2 times were galling because i was a software engineer at the time w 10+ years of experience in IT and offered my services as a response to their advertised needs for IT & web developers/admins; yet i was only picking up garbage alone 95% of the time.