Yea, I'm scared to go outside now.

My original country was kinda fucked, pollution, food safety, restrictive and oppressive controls on internal movements, etc..., so that's why my parents took our family to the US.

Now a decade later, we have this shit. The same tyranny we ran from. 🤷‍♂️

I'm still dependent and stuck with parents and kinda just helping out with their bussiness stuff because I'd need their help to pay for any depression treatments and I'm still on their insurance. I have too much issues to be able to live alone, I'd die, I can't handle it yet. And "touch grass" to help with depression wouldn't help, ICE is roaming the streets, so I'm just depressed at home most of the time. It take a monuments effort to find the energy and motivation to find a psychatrist. The last one kinda just told me to fuck off and throw a bunch of referrals at me, and told me to go somewhere else if I'm "drugseeking" since I expressed desure to be on antidepressants again (they didn't literally say it, but that's what it sounds like in my mind)

Sorry, no advice. Binge watch some tv?