We were enemies at school. I apologised years later, and that's how we got together. Our connection was very deep: I was her first in many things, the first she felt safe with, the first she could sleep well next to. We both said "forever" and even swore a blood oath. She told me I knew her better than anyone else.

She has Asperger's, PTSD and ADHD and iq of 147. She's very proud and rarely shows weakness. She always tries to seem like an adult and was childlike only around me.

My anxiety about a friend of hers came out as tears and fear after I'd hidden it. During one crisis I said goodbye, she asked "until when?", and I said "for good." That was July 2025. I regret it every day.

A month later she was with that friend, publicly, after telling me she hated being public and didn't like him. I asked her to come back twice: first "maybe someday," later "not for now, we can be friends," and finally "I'm happy." I also lashed out once when I found out they were together, which I regret.

Since August I've kept full no contact. What I can see: her bf watches my stories first and reacts to my activity within the hour, she posts sad songs about loss, got a tattoo that might refer to our last walk, and still uses and photographs the gifts I gave her. She sleeps badly. But she lives with him, and she may move abroad next year. I'm planning to move to the same country in 2028, partly because of her.

I'm working on my anxiety and rebuilding my life, and I won't contact her unless she does. And the guy is kinda of a dumm and simple, she doesn’t like that, she loves art and deep meanings - he can’t into such things.

I know how that sounds, but I really can’t live without her. I never felt alive and happy before her nor after, I lost the best friend, love, home, the only family I had that day. That forever meant something to me.

Do you guys think she may comeback? Does this happen? What’re your thoughts?