Me: I should meet people, make friends, and join a community!

Also me, when given the chance to attend an event or talk to a stranger:

I'd rather kill myself than accepting Tinders privacy policy.

Perhaps I should actually get involved in my community

I'm in this picture and I don't like it but I'm also not willing to change because that would be too uncomfortable

Me trying to meet the right person only going out after midnight and giving everyone I meet a false name.

Same. After meeting the wrong people and investing so much in failing and becoming older, the idea of even trying seems more than painful. I’m stable, if lonely.