this post turned into a bunch of rambling about random things with little connection so I'ma spoiler stuff into different categories of yappin'
Tally Counter
I used to have one on my old phone in highschool never kept up with it when I graduated.
Something about my brain enjoys small numbers slowly getting larger. I bought one of those tally counter toys and clicked it all the way to 99,999 before
and I think it'll be kinda funny to see "pills taken" eventually be at like 1,000 and I'm still not any better lmao
DailyYou (selfie every day app)
I only missed 2 days on my DailyYou (on F-Droid, would recommend) last month. The 29th is me, I just remembered at like 11pm and didn't wanna turn on the light
It has a notes section and ๐๐โน๏ธ emojis for each day, but I don't do that. probably would be good for me to do it though.
College (kinda vent)
anyways, I think im dropping out of community college for mental health... again. Thought I was ready after ~8 months, I was not. Doesn't help that the 2 classes I have are literally just math that's just a bunch of factoring (my autistic brain CANNOT factor to save my life) and a class about childhood and emotional development... with childhood trauma that makes the topic really difficult to write about.
I had some scholarships from highschool that pay for tuition and I don't really know how that's going to turn out, but I'm genuinely going to fry my brain with all the stress of constantly having stuff to do but breaking down crying any time I try to work on it. I haven't been able to go to class without crying in like 2 weeks. There's just so many people and I just get so worked up about nothing.
The worst part is that it's so doable too, I know I can work through it and get it done if I really tried. I feel like such a letdown but it's tearing me apart to keep doing it
Cats
anyways my brothers cat got into a fight with mine so I'm going to return him ๐
jk, he's too good of a snuggler for that. He's 18lbs of fluff fat and love. We tried to put him on a diet by getting an auto feeder, but he just comes into my cats room and eats her food and sometimes they beef :/
heres a photo where I accidentally had the flash on
I've started dming people
I've started dming people on Lemmy which is cool but I'm not very good at holding a conversation over text, i have a hard time trying to be related and actually convert my emotions into actual conversations instead of just posting an image that's related to what im trying to say. whenever I text my brother we always revert to just sending memes back and forth.
out of weed, T-break
Also I'm out of weed but I think I wanna go a while without it. I've been smoking too much recently and I think it's doing more harm than good. at the very least I'll lower my tolerance before buying more. the way I consume it is by using a "dry herb vaporizer" which you put the ground flower in a little metal capsule and then put it in and turn it on. That's what the "weed capsules" in the tally counter are. I used to smoke one capsule a day, but recently it's been more like 3, one before work, one after, and one before bed. which raises my tolerance a lot so probably not a good thing, especially since I have so many mental health issues with isolating myself ๐คทโโ๏ธ
FPV drone hobby
I bought a bunch of little $5-15 accessories for my drone and I'm going to give a review
- stick extenders
work pretty well, they make the small gymbals a lot more controllable. - 3d printed stick ends
These are really good for pinch grip (which is what I use) but you really should get stick extenders if you use them, they're shorter than the default sticks. Also you can somewhat fit it into the back stick holders in the radiomaster pocket, but it's kinda tight.
- better strap for goggles
it feels a lot better, but I don't think it was made to hold the battery for my goggles, I'm going to try with my new analog goggles once they get delivered later today. - propellor remover
eh. It kinda works but it requires that the propellors are kinda removed from the motor which isn't what happens when they're on all the way. better than nothing but not great.
yeah that's my yap/vent sesh, thanks for listening ๐
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