These degrees are a measure of how much effort it takes for psychologists or caretakers to conform to their vision of healthy behavior. That vision is heavily biased towards conformity, unobtrusiveness, and lack of complaint. This means that it may be healthier for you to live at 2 rather than attempt to return to 1.
It is common for autistic people's "severity" to increase when they learn to stand up for themselves and take the space they need. Eventually you may gain the experience to know how to that space in a way that doesn't demand quite as much effort from others, but that's a matter of continuing in the same direction of personal growth and development, not a return to your old state.
It is also common for autistic people's "severity" to increase when they don't learn to stand up for themselves, and the cumulative stress of trying to contort themselves to other people's expectations takes its toll on their mind and body. If your symptoms get worse while trying to conform, trying to conform harder will only make things worse.
Some autistic people do manage to 'solve' their lives and have their "severity" decrease without standing up for themselves, for example by finding a partner or institution (military, religious, corporate, etc.) who can control their lives for them in a way that is stable. This typically involves systematic emotional abuse or neglect because someone else trying to manage your emotions properly would have to do a high "severity" amount of work.
And some manage to stand up for themselves in a way that doesn't get medicalized, but that doesn't sound like an option for you.
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