Verbally abused children more likely to have poor mental health as adults, study finds
(www.theguardian.com)
I remember a speaker from when I was about 11-12 doing an assembly about the power of words. They used a metaphor of a plank of wood, and every insult is a hole drilled into it - it doesn't go away.
The intent was to reduce bullying, but I remember walking away thinking, "I must have nothing but wood shavings left over by now."
I'm sorry you went through what you did. Some things truly never leave you.