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That's like...a normal thing, right? Right?? Cause you can see if you made a mistake, if you actually said what you wanted to say and not some gibberish instead...right?? I'm normal, aren't I???

TMI, trauma tangentI have...bad thoughts. Sometimes. Well, pretty often. They're the kind of thoughts that people who went through horrible things sometimes have. Thoughts that...are supposed to make them "feel in control" of what's happened to them, if I understand it correctly.

But...I don't remember anything. I don't think I have any trauma. As hard as I try to search my memory, nothing comes up. Nothing like that, nothing traumatizing. Nothing "bad". And that's why it doesn't make sense to me. I don't know why I'm like this.

I mean the only thing I remember is my step-dad very briefly groping my ass when we were getting off the subway when I was younger, but that's it. And I don't even feel any trauma from that. Nothing bad happened to me. And still they won't stop...

I should get a therapist...

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[–] 4 points 3 hours ago

Yepppp, though I also can't shut up irl either and keep putting my foot in my mouth anyways. I've also developed mixed feelings on text communication because I tend to either get too focused on editing what I have to say (I've deleted comments I spent an hour typing, and messaging loved ones has become hard because the amount of effort I feel will go into it keeps me from starting) or I go full Leroy Jenkins with it and hit enter without thinking

But yes, therapy is great. I didn't think I was particularly fucked up or that my family home was that rough when I was a young adult. It took talking to people, including therapists, for me to realize a bunch of it and to start healing.

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