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That's like...a normal thing, right? Right?? Cause you can see if you made a mistake, if you actually said what you wanted to say and not some gibberish instead...right?? I'm normal, aren't I???

TMI, trauma tangentI have...bad thoughts. Sometimes. Well, pretty often. They're the kind of thoughts that people who went through horrible things sometimes have. Thoughts that...are supposed to make them "feel in control" of what's happened to them, if I understand it correctly.

But...I don't remember anything. I don't think I have any trauma. As hard as I try to search my memory, nothing comes up. Nothing like that, nothing traumatizing. Nothing "bad". And that's why it doesn't make sense to me. I don't know why I'm like this.

I mean the only thing I remember is my step-dad very briefly groping my ass when we were getting off the subway when I was younger, but that's it. And I don't even feel any trauma from that. Nothing bad happened to me. And still they won't stop...

I should get a therapist...

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[–] 6 points 19 hours ago (1 child)

Yup, sounds about right.

And I can speak from experience that I thought I was perfectly fine until other people heard what I've been through and told me "that's not okay".

"But I'm not traumatized by it" yes I was, it just took a couple decades for me to figure it out.

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  • [–] 1 point 4 hours ago

    Mood, part of my learned trauma response was acting like I'm ok even when I'm not, and with that convincing myself I was ok was a big part of it. I figured I'd had it rough, by the time I was an adult, and would acknowledge that some stuff was kinda traumatic for me, but despite having had full on flashback with visuals it took me years and a lot of help from loved ones to accept that I was pretty damaged and needed help.

    If people keep saying that you seem traumatized or that things that happened to you aren't ok, you've probably got some soul searching and healing to do. Turns out funny stories don't leave you being the only one laughing.

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