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That's like...a normal thing, right? Right?? Cause you can see if you made a mistake, if you actually said what you wanted to say and not some gibberish instead...right?? I'm normal, aren't I???

TMI, trauma tangentI have...bad thoughts. Sometimes. Well, pretty often. They're the kind of thoughts that people who went through horrible things sometimes have. Thoughts that...are supposed to make them "feel in control" of what's happened to them, if I understand it correctly.

But...I don't remember anything. I don't think I have any trauma. As hard as I try to search my memory, nothing comes up. Nothing like that, nothing traumatizing. Nothing "bad". And that's why it doesn't make sense to me. I don't know why I'm like this.

I mean the only thing I remember is my step-dad very briefly groping my ass when we were getting off the subway when I was younger, but that's it. And I don't even feel any trauma from that. Nothing bad happened to me. And still they won't stop...

I should get a therapist...

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[–] 50 points 1 day ago* (2 children)

It's really normal. I had to switch to text only with my ex-husband for these exact reasons. The gaslighting was intense and it can be so hard to get a sense of reality within a relationship like that.

It was lovely to be able to go in and delete some of the screenshots recently though. It's been long enough that I felt safe to let it go <3

Therapy helps! I'd strongly encourage exploring some options. It's not a bullet-proof solution, but therapy can really, really help.

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