Yeah like I said your in your phase of socialist development where you've accepted that the west is evil, but you have yet to deprogram yourself from the propaganda about its adversaries. So you see both the west, and its enemies, as the problem. Which is incoherent. I do not think anyone exists who thinks a government is perfect, but China is very clearly much better in many ways than any western government, and that is the very reason most of the global south looks to China in friendship.
It's a common mindset to go through. I hope you can get through it in a productive way.
