Im posting this here to see if anyone has any solutions or help. I am diagnosed with autism, and I often get embarrassing special interests or hyperfixations.. usually it would be like Miraculous, kids' shows that can also be seen by teens and adults but as of 3 years ago I've gotten really into Go Diego Go.. its the only show I'll watch, and I'll only draw and think about Go Diego Go. But every time I talk to anyone about i fear they're giving the dirty look behind the screen or thinking Im a weirdo in their minds if its in real life. I hate being autistic.

My problem is I get so obsessed that it hurts if I don't talk about it to people, like my brain gets so full that I can't function if I don't share it and I only have one last friend who won't judge me but they're always busy and I can tell they don't really want to hear about it. At the same time if I've yapped about something too much (like my infection au for GDG) it gets TIRING to yap about it further as if I've beat the dead horse into non-existence. It's awful.