I often play devils advocate and I get your feeling but then there is also peoples drive to understand themselves. Who they are and how they function. this technically does that. I mean the trans and neurodivergent folk do it all the time along with furries.

You're in a safe space, my perfect deck is a partners Ludevic, Necro-Alchemist and Bjorna, Nightfall Alchemist running an izzet Rube Goldberg of edge case artifacts with obscure rules that build 4-8 piece combo engines that only sometimes win the game after I twiddle a bunch of cards.

My follow up and less messy deck is Alesha, Who Smiles at Death with a toys theme from duskmourn. I want to do alters for all the cards so the legends look like creepy children and everything else looks like toys.