Since last month, a lot has happen but yet not a lot has happen at the same time. My weeks were pretty much full and I had a lot to do. Lately my brain has been playing tricks on me and I don’t think it’s due to lack of sleep as I get enough sleep.

I promised to write an essay on this one, so no matter how long it will take me to write it, I’m gonna write it. But I also want people to engage in conversations, so I’ll probably drop some questions ;3

Christmas (not sure if that's how I should name it)

Since it’s not halloween anymore, I started to look for things I could get for Christmas on my own. Some of those things would actually be useful, but some of them less. I’m also looking for what my friends would be happy to get. As usual, the rise of price make it hard for me to offer things they might expect to get, but I’ll try my best to find things they didn’t think about.

Gaming

I’ve been back to playing VRChat after a long break, I played with a friend who found an issue with an unwanted asset on the quest version of my avatar and instead of removing I decided to keep as it could fit a cyberpunk aesthetic in some cases. He also encouraged me to progress in the Fish world (a world where you just fish). In the mean time, I also got back to playing Geometry Dash. For the past two weeks I’ve played to player-made levels and now I find the default level very easy compare to what players make, and yet I was only playing hard levels.

I’m happy that I’ve been able to play with a friend, cause even on Minecraft servers, I always play alone while people have teams.

Friends

With a friend, we’re gonna try to attend a convention this month. Not a furry, cause they’re too expensive at the moment, but a general cultural (more anime-focus) convention. Usually there’s some furries that go to those conventions, and it’s the case. A furry association is gonna be attending the convention, and I also have three online friends that are gonna be attending it, one of them just got his fursuit recently. I do hope to break my record in terms of taking photos xD

In another note, my German also improved but I fear that I’m losing a bit of the German I’ve learned since I’m barely practicing. I should go back to Telegram as I have a lot of furries from Germany on it, but they’re not really active and I don’t want to bother them with that until they become available.

Drawing

I have drawn a drawing a few days ago, but I can’t find inspiration to make another one. I have planned to offer a drawing to a content creator that I like, but I didn’t find the inspiration and yet their fursona is really hard for me to draw in a kemono style. I looked for reference and it’s a barely used fursona, so even regular art is hard to find, so let alone finding it in one style.

Venting

On a sader note, I’ve been feeling mixed lately. I fear that I'm gonna have anger issues, I can’t also communicate with my colleagues as none of them wanna talk to me. I understand them, I’d probably do the same thing, they all have their friend group and I’m friend with none of my colleague. The only time where they talk to me is when we have to do group work, and it’s mostly when they have no choice but to be with me. I find that annoying as they all see me be alone but yet being next to them and try to talk with them, when we presents ourselves most of them said they’d gladly talk to people that are alone, most of them said they were extrovert, and I’m not seeing any of that being applied. Maybe am I expecting too much from them ? I don’t really know how to go to people irl. Well, I did it previously, but it’s because they were wearing a giant anthropomorphic animal costume, so it’s not the same thing.

And as I promised, some questions I might have for you :

• What is something that happened to you recently, that taught you an unexpected lesson ?
• When life gets too overwhelming, do you have any tip to share ?
• What kind of music are you listening to recently ?

With all of that said, I hope you to get good for the days that comes and will gladly take the time to read what you all have to share here.