i'm sorry you felt abandoned by the community. for my part i will say that i saw your post, but like many others i didn't feel like i'd be able to provide any helpful input. i hate that you don't have anyone to talk to. i do get how scary your situation must be. i want to say that you should tell her how you feel, but that also seems like the romantic in me and potentially irresponsible on my part.

you (among others) gave me the strength to realize something important about myself. i've also really valued your responses to my questions as i struggle to figure myself out. they're always very thoughtful and well considered. i absolutely value your membership in this community. anyway, feel free to dm anytime.