I truly believe also that to meet someone like the first girl I mentioned I would need to leave my country. They don’t make them like that around here, our society would never produce that kind of person.

i completely feel the same way. but maybe it's just something about people who travel being more exciting? so it's not really as if her home country is full of these people ...

anyways,

We’re perfect for each other and she manages to break down my defences and we’re together for an amazing six months. Then without warning she breaks up with me.

i must admit that this has happened many times in my life. first was when i was 8 years old with my mother (she fell psychologically ill and i felt like she left me for no reason), then when i was 12 with two of my best friends, then when i was 16, and now i've grown so ... inherently opposed to the idea that one would be together with another person for the rest of one's life because that expectation is precisely what makes it so painful if it doesn't turn out to be true. i'm not sure what else to say to this.