Being alone is really hard. I would be single for years in between relationships, and friends tend to come and go in my life. Being there for yourself and doing all the self-care things are important, but that never fully offsets the feeling of coming home to an empty apartment every night.

I remember reading your post from last week and thinking you deserved better. I think you're going to find people who value you and don't throw you away this time. You might be alone for a while longer, but good things will happen and it'll be wonderful when it does. You're allowed to be sad and angry about everything that's happened to you, but I hope the pain doesn't make you give up on everything you want out of your life. I hope one day this will be the memory of a trial you overcame.