So tired of the loss, the struggle, the loneliness, the always giving, never getting. I'm so very, very tired.

Family members always asking for me to do something for them but never lift a finger to help. Work putting me through hell but no compensation. Giving my all to work and family with no help in return.

I always thought making my hobbies more interesting would make people be interested in me but all I get is "Oh cool...anyways-" when I show them the video game I made. When I tell them the book I wrote. When I show them a painting I made. I get ghosted when I try to talk to people I meet. They say the only way to cure loneliness is by yourself but that's a load of bullshit. I can only say I have one friend who I sometimes play games with and talk over discord. I've met people but I'm always to initiate conversation, to invite them to do something. Recently, I've met people who seemed interested in the work I do and requested my contact info. But yet, my messages remain empty.

I hear of people I know in my life traveling, winning big amounts of money, getting married, having kids, getting promoted. Me? A virgin with a bachelor's, in their 30s, living with their parents, stuck in a job for 2 years that still considers me a trainee, and posting a vent online because no one in my life gives a shit about how I'm feeling.

I'm so very tired, boss.