Part of the whole process with the gym, is that sometimes it becomes routine. It becomes part of you. You ARE the "gym-goer" and sometimes it'll be not fun. But you stick with it because you know that's what works for you.
Maybe you can find that in the program. Sometimes it's hard or boring and that's normal but it's the way you found the healthy version of yourself?
If it's not working for you, maybe reach out to your sponsor, therapist, or other help resource
❤️... For as much as an internet stranger can give