You keep attacking me for believing in some form of magic, which i don’t.

You do, by your own admission.

How i personally identify my own conciousness experiences is just that. I can define things my own way for myself.

Tell us more about your spirituality.

I was trying to make an example of non religious conciousness experience which can use similar philosophies critically without believe in magic.

But it is belief in magic.

And obviously it failed because you attack it just the same.

Because it's the same baseless magical thinking.

What evidence do you have that something "larger" than you exists?

No, you're the one making it personal.

No, I am criticizing beliefs. Christianity is a death cult. You took that so personally, you still won't shut up about it.

I have been defending the personal experience of others since the beginning

The personal experiences that compel them to hurt others. That's attacking, not defending.

it was a mistake to be openhearted about my own but I really am trying to be your friend.

If that is true, stop defending death cults. As I said, I cannot be friends with liars. I've made that mistake before. It nearly killed me.

The irony is lost on you.

Your false equivalences are fucking disgusting. Your brain doesn't work.

Or you are a troll/ai in which case well, i really hope not.

Sure, I'm paying every month to host videos I made about my real life for the lols. Do you think I faked my little brother threatening mass violence? Search Christopher Stowe San Antonio yourself, see what you find.

No, I'm putting myself out there, warts and all, on the off-chance it helps even one person avoid what I suffered.

You can lie about me, but you can't erase me, and FUCK YOURSELF TO DEATH for trying.