i am in no way “smart” and all that but i have subjects i love to learn about. mostly philosophy and “thought about thought.”

one of the things that depresses me is how I kind of wish to be stranded on an island with unlimited free time to read and think. like if i were to die and end up in some sort of afterlife, i would miss most the lost time i had to simply learn stuff.

sometimes that spirals me. sigh.