I think you're bordering extremely close to eco fascism and need to do some self reflection on what you actually value. Are you a fascist?

Ecofascism, sometimes spelled eco-fascism,[1] is a term used to describe individuals and groups which combine environmentalism with fascism.[2]

Ecofascism is "environmentalism through genocide"

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ecofascism

Speak for yourself. I'm just stupid enough to live.

Go do real shit in the real world. Go volunteer, pick up trash, organize with others and seek out other helpers.

The propaganda is the series of influences that led you to believe it's some natural epiphany you had for yourself and not an opinion shaped by those influences.

Plenty of people look at the same exact human behavior you do and come to positive conclusions. You are a product of your influences, and some of those influences come in the form of propaganda encouraging you to be apathetic and allow those sociopaths tearing us apart to thrive.

Then I think you're the one too stupid to live