fuck I'm not in the right headspace when I'm asking this, unresolved trauma. Now I'm repeating in my head "love them more than my mental illnesses".

I wanted to warn an organization i cared about my past and that manipulation comes naturally to me to the point where I don't notice after the fact. I legit want see them succeeded and stand in blind solidarity.

I have reached out someone in the organization about my issues. I'm hoping they respond.