I mean, me too, but I think this is why the phrase 'like talking to a wall' is a thing.

(Or maybe I'm just inventing an interpretation but w/e)

When you're in a cult, indoctrinated, something like that...

A huge part of how that works is, well, beyond framing things in such a way that things that are actually quite similar... do not seem to be...

You build in though stopping cliches.

You build in rebuttals to common criticisms, and those rebuttals often hinge on something like swapping between one definition of a word and another, conflation.

You program in ways of thinking about things that actually do just make certain kinds of thoughts damn close to actually unthinkable, unless somebody that doesn't have the same framing as you do kindly explain itnto you.

Then you build a whole culture around this, and around never questioning certain things, around curiosity being potentially dangerous, about maligning (indirectly or directly) people who pursue knowledge and experimentation.

I had to deconvert myself outta that kinda bullshit.

It ain't easy, in your own mind and life, and with most of the people around you shaming and punishing you for it.