I didn’t know how messed up it was at the time, but with the hindsight of what I know now: Hebrew school telling me I could go on a free trip to Israel after my Bar mitzvah. I didn’t go mostly because I didn’t like religion or having to go to boring temple all the time, but now that I know about the genocide and the Birthright trip being this super messed up propaganda tool for impressionable teenagers I’m really glad I didn’t go.