No pressure, no obligation, and grief is a complex, multi-faceted pain that no words can adequately describe.
So with all kindness, love, and care
the cat distribution system may be trying to help you in it's own weird way.
Your love for Melbcat is not dishonoured or diminished by liking another cat. The heart is infinite in it's love, and is not depleted by loving more.
I'm thinking of you and sending you my love π