I appreciate the empathy.

And yeah, it’s really wild how much being an American who has a strong sense of humanistic ethics and a solid understanding of history and geopolitics and civil rights puts you in disassociative states on a fairly regular basis these days.

I’m genuinely torn on what sort of mid- to long-term plans I should be considering these days. Political activism that very well may put me on A List of Bad People The Regime Doesn’t Like, with all the implications that might contain in the coming few years?fuck off and go to Europe and work for the defense industry there (never thought I’d ever consider going back into defense, but I’d absolutely do it to help non-insane countries defend themselves against the US breaking bad)? Move to NH and buy lots of guns and teach myself how to machine things for uses that are definitely legal and practice flying FPV drones a lot? Who fucking knows.

And then there’s family and friends here who are like “oh it’s ok the system will correct itself”… like, what fucking planet are you on? How is that your takeaway? What the fuck? God, it’s exhausting. But also, what’s my best move to try to help/protect the people in my life I care about, regardless of whether they accept what’s going on right now?

Thanks for coming to my TED talk I guess 😬