Hmm.

I don't ask for help out of stubbornness. I guess I never grew out of "I can do it myself!" But, now, I have no one to ask, so there's that.

I haven't had an actual friend in over 30 years. I had a roommate for four years who was the next-closest thing to a friend I had--mostly a friend, more than just a roommate, at least. Then I got married, and she seemed like a friend until she cheated on me. Other than that, I've had work acquaintances, some of whom I would occasionally hang out with outside of work, but once I quit and left, that ended, too. I've had many girlfriends over the years, but that's not really the same thing. It was never "friend with benefit", it was always benefit with friend. Once the benefit stopped, so did the friendship. So, yeah, not great at relationships.

I don't feel I've ever been outright abandoned. Apart from the divorce, the parting of ways was to some degree mutually agreed to. And, by the time the divorce was finalized, I was on board, too. You might think, "But, she cheated on you...", well, yes, but things aren't always so black and white and simple to parse.