I love programming and I did it as a job from 1995 to 2019. Absolutely the only time I enjoyed it was when I was left completely by myself to work entirely alone -- no managers, no designers, no junior developers, I did everything related to application production, deployment and maintenance completely by myself. These were also the only times I produced anything that was worth a shit and was actually used by people.

The dominant paradigm in software holds that it's fundamentally a team sport that requires an absolutely rigid division of labor. I know that this is not so and that in very many cases software is more like golf: just you and a heavy bag of clubs and a fuck ton of rough and sand traps.