I don't really understand where you're coming from here or rather what exactly you talk about. You reading, learning and doing athletics is exactly what I meant in my comment, so I think it's amazing you're doing those things.
But also yes, I intentionally made this comment because it seems like as you experienced, a lot of people need to do more of it, including your exes.
And the "being subordinate" is also exactly what I meant, they see you being amazing and comparison leads to them feeling bad about themselves, which is obviously your fault /s.
Are you lonely?