I get that. What is difficult for me is that I am the person in my family living closest to everyone. Plus, my parents, who are getting older, don't want to host anymore. I therefore became the de facto host without wanting to be one. But my family have such a high standard of cleaning that I find it difficult to have them over. For example, yesterday, they teased me about the fact that my bedside table was messy, in my own bedroom. I'm tired.