Omg I ruminate on alt-timelines about decisions that weren't even my own. Like the alt-timeline where I was never born, or never moved abroad, or if I got different classes, that maybe I didn't get bullies, or like the alt-timeline where I left my country earlier and didn't get to keep my multilingualism. Or like maybe I could do things differently at home so that my parents loved me more, or like tried to make more friends... etc...
I get it. I think that's just brain.exe doing brain.exe things.
The worst part is those traumatic memories tho, I still remember one of those from like... a long time ago... been re-living that day for a long time. What if the outcome was worse? What if I never made it out of that situation alive?
So... yeah...
idk
OCD
CPTSD
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