I trained my brain to be a happier person that brings joy to others so i get positivity back
But today horrors within my comprehension kept invading my daydreams so i listened to some happy music (for me thats mostly "jumpy" 16? bit music and absolutly no voice) to change my mindset to return to happy

But i wont claim i have some harsh life as i am a white european in europe with no need to check my balance before getting groceries
I just have selfmade? anxiety :'D