This is exactly how I felt too. I'm a grown adult. I don't want to be babied. I didn't like being infantilized as a kid or teen, and I won't tolerate it now. I wanted stimulants so I would be able to do better work for other people faster and with less stress on me. Help Me Help You.. Or spit in my face, I guess, and we both suffer.

(Also, stimulants aren't addictive. That's DEA propaganda. The ADHD brain is just naturally prone to dependency.)