I'm mentally ill too to be clear so it kind of goes both ways here lol. I'm a self destructive type of person so I feel like I almost deserve and even enjoy being treated like shit in some sort of way

I'm raised by narcissists and I'm slowly deprogramming from that and I hate to admit this but I think part of the reason I like her is she is extremely easy to manipulate and it's easy for me to get her to do whatever I want. I don't really intend to manipulate people but it's still something I do sometimes that I really wish I didn't. People with BPD are easily manipulated usually