the new (rewritten & maintained) version shows them by default, maybe you are on sable legacy still?

i am a part of one such group on matrix, if you'd want to, i can dm you more info ^^" (i use Sable as a client instead of Element, it's a bit more pleasant to use)

oh, thank you for this. been an adult only for a couple of years, but i felt seen, at least partially :) i think it would have resonated even more if i weren't already questioning for a couple of months. i've been switching between doubt and euphoria the whole time, not believing what was happening could be real, suppressing, feeling nothing, all kinds of complex thoughts, dealing with the intensity of feelings fading away over time, as all once new things do (which is sadly easy to mistake for "well, i don't feel it strongly anymore, might just have been a phase"). if anyone is questioning, don't keep it to yourselves. it's hard to trust an abrupt change in perception of an important part of yourself, that you knowingly, or unknowingly kept hiding.