This is not the place for this sort of histrionic attention seeking. Find a professional therapist to help treat your disorder.

There’s a kink called consensual nonconsent you should look into, that might be your thing. Stay away from people who aren’t well versed in consent how communication works. There’s lots of dangerous and irresponsible people in the bdsm world.

I hope this is some sort of Chris Hansen operation.

If not, OP I'd reccomend you take screenshots of any text/DMs you have with folks that reach out in case you want to prosecute them later.

Consensual noncon is a thing, like that other comment says; but that's not this.

People who think like you do also think Killing Stalking is a love story... Abuse is about power and obsession, not attraction or love. Confusing them will only lead to suffering and disappointment.

Makes sense I guess.