Analysis: You are aprehensive about some negative and chaotic forces in your life that you can't control. You are worried about what you are capable of if push comes to shove. You don't want to become that person, fearful about what you will think about yourself and what other will think about you.

You are even more worried if you are forced to become a monster you loath, that others will think nothing of it. If those in your circle can accept a monster who was forced to become something terrible like it was normal, who are these people you've let into your life?