I'm typing this while sitting in a skirt and knee socks that i bought for myself. Something I never thought I would/could do. And I'm honestly kind of liking it.

I let my curly hair kinda puff up a little and even put on some cat ears. If I cover my face and moustache with a leftover covid mask I almost... almost? could look feminine? And I like that for some reason.

Maybe I could be a woman and enjoy it???

sorry I am a little weed high so i may ramble a bit.

i never post pics of myself but this is a sanitized alt so i don't think I can be identified at all, what do you think?

the knee socks are supposed to be thigh highs but i am a tall mf and i got amazon'ed lol

anyway i already made a meme to share so see you in !egg_irl@lemmy.blahaj.zone in like 4 minutes lol

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[–] [S] 2 points 2 weeks ago (4 children)

Huh, I didn't know that hrt would change your "brain feel" that much. Is it like one of those thing where if you take low dose for like a week you can notice the difference? Or is it like a month or more. I've always struggled with the low motivation/brain fog kinda stuff, and feeling just kinda numb/not present, and never thought that hormones could change that...

I'd probably have to find some black market to see if it's right becuase I doubt any providers in my local shithole would ever get me any. And I don't want to go through the American medical system any more than I have to these days....

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  • [–] 2 points 2 weeks ago* (last edited 2 weeks ago) (3 children)

    Huh, I didn’t know that hrt would change your “brain feel” that much. Is it like one of those thing where if you take low dose for like a week you can notice the difference?

    yeah absolutely. i've taken finasteride for like 9 months (link) and the net effect of it is that it basically blocks the effects that testosterone has on your body, to a certain extent.

    the biggest changes that i could actually immediately observe within a few hours were mood changes. i felt like i could think and perceive the world around me in ways that i couldn't do before. especially, it has improved my mood by a lot (well, it started with a whole lot of crying and reflecting on past life experiences in general, but after that i felt really good in a sustainable way and still do). that's actually been the first and most impressive effect for me, and sets on about T+2 hours after taking the pill (T=0), i'd say, and lasts till about T+6 hours roughly.

    other effects i could observe are better smell (my skin smells better, not my nose works better) (about 3 days to 2 weeks after starting) and softer skin (2 - 4 weeks i'd say). i did get mild chest growth but it was very mild (i might have AA or A cup now)

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  • [–] [S] 1 point 2 weeks ago* (last edited 2 weeks ago) (2 children)

    Thats cool. I see in the wiki link that it can lead to negative mental effects in cis men... So that would pretty definitively prove if I'm trans if I could get my hands on some if it had a positive effect instead lol.

    Thank you <3

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  • [–] 2 points 2 weeks ago (1 child)

    yeah i think my theory on it is basically that it does indeed block testosterone so it kinda causes "gender dysphoria" in cis men ...

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  • [–] [S] 2 points 2 weeks ago* (last edited 2 weeks ago)

    And that makes perfect sense! I was (slowly) reading the gender dysphoria bible earlier and the discussion about how actual hormone levels being incongruent with the brain's neural wiring will cause dysphoria made sense. So it matches how a drug that blocks T effects would cause regulat cis men to then have depression and all the other fun stuff we get to deal with.

    I'll have to look into it.

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