I'm to tired from psychosis, everyday i curse at this illness. I can't even shower cause that, changing clothes? it's impossible! And the worst thing is: constant fear from cops, every time i see a police car i became paranoid, heck i don't need to see a police car i am paranoid 24/7! I'm too tired, i just want it to end all and be free finally...
Now that your have some meds, maybe try reaching out to those friends again if you can? Good friends will always be more patient with this sort of thing than you might expect.
Just be transparent and also try not to lay things on them too heavy all at once. They're friends, not therapists (though that doesn't mean they don't care about you)
Speaking of which, a good therapist can also be really helpful if you find one. Just like with meds, don't be afraid to try a few out until you find the one that works with you