know that my mind constantly wants to engage in an understanding of mindfulness rather than the practice itself.

Big +1 to that. I noticed though that I can use this connection as a jump starter: When I read texts about mindfulnes, the anticipation of the benefits and the tone those books are written calms me down. So while the more important part is the practice itself, sometimes reading those popular feel-good texts is actually improving the my practice itself.

s for your question of if you should get more serious about things, I guess that depends on what you're looking for. Are you getting what you want out the time you spend practicing? Are you finding what you're looking for? Once you articulate your purpose, it will be easier for you to determine which way to go. I wish you the best with your practice.

I am getting out of my practice what I want, but I am a FOMO guy. When I stand up after a session, I often wonder what would happen if I would have sat longer, if I would sit more consistently, etc. You know, if I can get a bite of the enlightenment cake everyone is talking about. I understand that its an attainable state but not sure if for me and my engagement with the path.