I'm definitely better off no contact with her but I'm the only family she has in this country and unfortunately, I didn't inherit her callousness. In fact it's made me hypervigilant of suffering so I had some stupid need to help her. I honestly could have let her die in at least 4 situations in the past 6 years and she's just as ungrateful each time.

When covid started, for whatever reason, she started cleaning everything with 2 spray bottles that she put cleaners in. One contained bleach and the other had ammonia. The time I caught her doing it she was "cleaning" the bathroom with the window and door closed. I walked past the bathroom and could smell the chemicals. I told her you're gassing yourself to death by mixing those and her response was "IT'S IN 2 DIFFERENT BOTTLES, THEY AREN'T MIXING". I had to explain to her that when she sprays one then the other one on top, as she was doing, it's literally mixing right in front of you. She storms off in silence.

Sorry for trauma dumping so hard but man, shit is annoying af.