I do my best.

I'm a bit beyond the point of beating myself up or lashing out. Currently living alone for the first time in my life (I'm not a young man mind you) and each day is a bit of discovery and introspection.

I have bad days and bad habits but therapy and aweness helps keep things in perspective. It's hard to explain to people the point I'm at. I don't consider myself depressed. I'd say I'm re-discovering myself while also trying not to fall into the full escape of solitude.

It's generally nice, though really 'healing' I think, requires some discomfort. So no, not beating myself up. Not angry these days. I'm just trying to be a brave little guy when I need to be.

best of luck on your journey too.