I know I shouldn't have, and I'm sorry I did. But it was lying on the floor next to the bed, and I guess she forgot to put it up.

I opened it, and now I'm very worried about her. In her personal life, she's a jester. She's always so joyful with everyone around her.

Well, in her diary, every entry I looked at, even the most recent one, is about how profoundly depressed she is, and how she wants to kill herself, but for one reason or another is too afraid to do so. Even entries from years ago are like this. It seems like she's felt this way for years, maybe even most of her life.

She gives all kinds of reasons why, from money/probably never being able to own a home (we're poor), to just general feelings of being "tired of life".

I had no idea. I don't think anyone does besides me. I'm freaking out while I wait for her to come home this evening.

Now that I know, how the hell do I bring it up? Wtf do you do when you know this kind of info and can't tell her how you do?

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[–] 9 points 3 months ago

Firstly, reading your partners diary because they left it out is a huge violation of privacy. I won't bang on about it but IMO you really have to tell her that you did that. Expect her to be angry. She should be. If I kept a diary and someone read it because "I forgot to put it up" that would be pretty much unforgivable.

Secondly, you can't really help someone's inner life / mental health journey unless they want to be helped and they want you to help them. The exception being when they're at risk of harming themselves or others. In some cases it can be difficult to make this assessment, but in this case it need not be, you can just ask her directly. If she's hasn't already murdered you for reading her diary then you can just ask: "It's fine if you don't want my help and support, but I really do care about you and this has really spooked me. Can I just ask whether you're at risk of harming yourself?".

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